• Birth,  Homebirth,  life,  Pregnancy

    Northwest Woman's Bun in the Oven Overcooked

    November 14, 2037 SPOKANE, WA – An unusual story out of the Inland Northwest has surfaced this week after a 50-year-old woman was discovered pregnant during a visit to urgent care for a sprained ankle. While her age makes the pregnancy peculiar, the truly remarkable part of her gestation is its length. The woman, Krysann Sedberry, has been expecting for the last 20 years. In 2017, Sedberry and her husband were excited to find that they would welcome their fourth child in November of that year. November came and went, however, and as each month followed, the couple questioned whether or not they were pregnant at all. “By Christmas, we…

  • Baby Berry,  Family,  Grief,  life,  Motherhood,  Pregnancy

    It's a Boy! (dammit)

    So. I’m pregnant. And full disclosure: I really wanted another girl. I wanted our eldest to have a sister to relate to, I loved the idea of my two boys being bookmarked with a little less testosterone, but mostly? I wanted another little girl to share in the thing my mom and I had. She used to buy this terribly amazing ice cream that had actual Butterfinger swirled into it. It was like our emergency fire extinguisher: we broke the glass for mean girls and stupid boys and post-fight-make-ups and really bad period cramps. Two spoons, one tub, no shame. We’d sit in her bed with our comfort food and…

  • Birth,  God,  Jesus Christ,  Kingdom,  Love,  Pregnancy,  Worship

    Eve & Mary & A Baby Bump

    Life swells. Like a bruise, like a flower. It hiccups and blossoms and jolts about with new growth and this is never more clear than during pregnancy. And Mary’s swollen stomach wasn’t the start, wasn’t the end, but was in the middle of this growing, this death-becoming-life. We get word pictures of creation in labor at the moment of Jesus’ arrival. As this ordinary Jewish woman felt a miracle in her womb, every living cell felt it, too. But it wasn’t the beginning of a story toward redemption and it wasn’t the end of the work to be done. It was a climax. I love that image of Eve and…

  • Birth,  Christian Living,  Homebirth,  Jesus Christ,  Kingdom,  Motherhood,  Pregnancy

    When Midwife Means Missionary

    Because every woman deserves to know how capable she is. That her creator has endowed her with the strength of lions and wind and oceans. That she has been chosen among humans to weave together Life in her womb and that the work it takes to separate herself from that life is heroic. Every woman. Here, there, everywhere. Every woman. Because fear has no place in the carved out space God intended for Life and someone needs to tell it to get out. Carrie, the woman who assisted in the births of my children, who has been a friend and mentor here in my early mothering is amazing in her…

  • Baby Berry,  Community,  Food,  Friends,  Motherhood,  Pregnancy

    Baby Berry 2's Baby Sprinkle

    So, I kind of have the best friends. Sorry. Yours are probably cool, too. A few of them {Tessa, Krista & Hannah} got their sweet and thoughtful heads together and came up with the PERFECT baby shower for Baby Berry and I. Seriously. Perfect. With little touches that made you say, “Awwww” {unless your clothespin said you weren’t allowed to} and unique games that brought wide smiles and tons of giggles. And then some of the loveliest ladies showed up with joy and excitement for this little love. They told birth stories, laughed at the word “sperm” {which I feel was used unusually often}, and just overall relished in this…

  • Baby Berry,  God,  Jesus Christ,  Motherhood,  Pregnancy,  Worship

    Preparing for Labor Day

    Raychel was born like a southern storm. Surprising, powerful, terrifying, and absolutely, breathtakingly beautifully. Labor with RJ was jolting in many ways: it went so much faster than I had anticipated, it hurt in a way I couldn’t have expected and the place my mind went to was unlike any other. Like many initiations mine into Motherhood was both a shock and a joy. And honestly, I remember it as the best day of my life. I have lamented that I wasn’t really present with God {or anything} and I have looked back and wished that were not the case, but… I trust God was there. And perhaps my first…

  • Christian Living,  God,  Pregnancy

    Ramble | Confession | Hope

    For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come.Through him then let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God, that is, the fruit of lips that acknowledge his name. (from Hebrews 13)   I’m wrestling with this. A lot. Because when I don’t feel God I don’t know how to love Him. How screwed up is that? I have had a serious struggle with my attitude lately (cursed irony). This pregnancy has brought a whole host of irritable, overly sensitive emotions which are directed at the bullseye on my husband about 99% of the time. {The remaining 1% aimed at commercials, RJ, programs and…

  • Baby Berry,  Christian Living,  Home,  Love,  Motherhood,  Pregnancy

    An Attitude Adjustment

    On Sunday Brent Harris delivered a great message on love. He even sang a line of the Beatles. As he talked about what real love looks like he mentioned that while we can’t control our feelings toward someone, we need to align our attitudes and our actions with what is true. No matter what kind of person we are dealing with, they are loved by God and deserve from us the same grace we were given undeserved from the Father. That dichotomy began to itch me: feelings vs. attitude. When I was a kid my dad would warn whiney or pouty me to “Fix the attitude.” He would never say,…

  • Baby Berry,  Community,  Family,  Friends,  Love,  Motherhood,  Photography,  Pregnancy

    The Birth Story

    Disclosure: This is a fairly detailed account of Raychel’s birth. If you don’t want to know, don’t read. 🙂 Raychel Joye Sedberry joined this crazy world on July 18, 2011 at 6:24 in the morning at Dayspring in Hayden, Idaho (she’s our little spud). She weighed 8 pounds and 12 ounces and measured 21 inches long. She also had a full head of hair! As she is lying here on the bed next to me, making adorable faces, I am just in complete amazement by her… I seriously can’t even concentrate on writing this. It’s taken me like an hour to get this far. She just keeps doing cute things!…

  • Baby Berry,  Pregnancy,  Rant

    A I-Shouldn’t-Be-Awake-Right-Now Vent

    So there are a plethora of things “they” do not tell you about pregnancy. Not only will you find out on your own, but when you do you will be utterly freaked out because you are about 83% positive that it is abnormal and your baby is going to end up with some bizarre complication. 93% if said symptom is discovered in the middle of the night when you’re disoriented. I won’t make a list, but to any of you non-pregnant ladies out there, feel free to ask when you do get your BFP (big fat positive – evidently there is a whole dictionary of acronyms just for pregnant women)…